I have had a hard time writing this letter to you, because you have turned my life upside down. Without my permission. For a long time I've been very bitter. Unable to process why you chose me, but lately, I've begun to realize that much of my deep hatred for you that has interfered with my emotional life is on me, not you. I let you steal my identity. I allowed you to take not only my physical health, but my emotional health as well. I focused on everything that was wrong in my life and ignored everything that was right.
Don't get me wrong, if I could break up with you forever, I would do it in a heartbeat. I have begun, however, to learn how to live with you without letting you destroy me. I will continue to battle you with the hopes of leaving you behind one day, but I refuse to let you take my entire life over. Mentally, you have disappeared a little more every day. Of course I will think about you some days, but the more time that passes, the less often it happens. I'm taking my life back from you.
I am promising myself, right here and now, that my life will focus on other things. Things that make me smile and not cry. I will pursue my dreams despite you and I won't reach them because of you as you will have nothing to do with my journey. I have learned a great deal from you, but it's time to take what I've learned and move on. I will, of course, never forget you, but will work to forgive you. You've been part of what has made me who I am today, but it is time to say goodbye. Here's to moving forward and enjoying life...without you.