Feeling guilty for crying. Feeling guilty for missing out of life, especially family and friends. Feeling guilty for dragging others down into my pit of despair. Feeling guilty for having to depend on others, disrupting their lives. And, well, feeling guilty for feeling guilty.
But we need to stop feeling guilty, as hard as it is (trust me, I know), because this was never our fault. These were the cards we were dealt. Life threw us a curve ball that, as we tell ourselves repeatedly, isn't fair. Yes, we miss out on activities that we might otherwise go to, but we didn't chose to be sick. While we might need help from others for the simplest things, we should feel honored that we have people who are willing to help. When we dip into depression, we often come out of it on the other side with realizations that many other people will never have.
Personally, feeling guilty about pretty much everything has been a constant battle as I fight to get better. I can deal with my symptoms and side effects, but when I lose it is when my guilt kicks in... However, I have to admit that I've learned so much over the past year. About myself, about others in my life... And most importantly that I need to rewrite my self script of guiltiness. I never, in a million years, would have put myself, my loved ones, or my friends through what I have because IT'S NOT MY FAULT.